Lost love? Me too. How to smile again

Could someone please explain to me what the heck my life has instore for me. i think i wanna stay in NY then realize people are full of crap, then i wanna go home, but yet i wont have anything to do. i wanna travel and perform, but i might not be good enough and yet it all comes back to me not wanting to leave my students. but i cant stand NY and the people in it. but yet i just want to be home with my best friends and the people i love, yet im stuck here. Hmm WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?? where am i supposed to go!!! lol I NEED ANSWERS!!!! and soon! :-(  last 3 weeks, Cinco de mayo in delaware, baby shower in jersey, Home the next weekend then graduation with my 2 very best friends corey and chelsea…I am so Happy they are coming up! <3 Hmm. What to do….what to do! lol 

rakuli:

     Sleep, dear, fleeting sleep, in
     such small portions you seep
     into my world as  I am curled
                                   up hoping         my sanity I can
                                keep.  Oh            snoozing is not
                            losing when                         in my           mind I dream. I
                        am at peace                        under                the sheets, the
                     landscapes                      agleam.                           Precious
                 dozing, as                          not so                             closed
             in, all   my                          fears                                I can
           not see. I                          am the narrator, I         am the
           creator, all the  stories    are for me. So I am   drifting
           the weights  are  lifting     from my shoulders   not hunched. Sweet
           serenity, calm amenity,                                         no nerves bunched. 

exactly 30 days i will walk on a stage in a cap and gown and be handed my fake diploma (the real ones get mailed) and take a million pictures with the 2 most important people in all of my college expirence. I dont think i would have made it through college without my 2 most amazing friends amber and wren. 

<3<3<3<3<3 Dont fear the future, just embrace it with caution and a plan<3<3<3

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IF THERE WAS SUCH A PLACE AND TOWN I JUST KNOW I WOULD LOVE IT!!! THIS SHOW IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE AMAZING<3 THANKS